Sharing in others stories, means sharing in their pain and in turn being vulnerable to share your own. There’s healing for both.
How do I process all of this? There is paradox of tackling injustice and seeing the scope of the needs. Its all too easy to compare myself to the size of the problem and find myself coming up short.
Questions often come; How do I walk with God, rely on his strength and his wisdom, what is that/how is that walked out, who am I really, do I have what it takes? What expectations/standards are I setting on myself? Are they realistic, are they from God? The list could go on. I want to walk by faith, as Proverbs says:
‘Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.’ Proverbs 3:5
The reality of the heart is quite different to what you know in your head. In this 16 month journey God has met me where Im at, helped my ‘connect all the dots’ brain to gradually let-go and be at peace with the realisation not all responsibility lies on me, my future my my fears and dreams are His responsibility, in fact its Him that makes the paths straight, I walk.
We don’t have to have everything figured out to be useful. I am thankful that the film we are making isn’t dependent solely on my planning strategy, maturity or wisdom or the collective work of the whole team, there is something and someone far bigger than me directing it all and by all I don’t just mean our film. This is very good news, very good news indeed. I hope to walk forward in 2015 with greater peace in a ever brightening future. God isn’t finished with me yet and neither is he finished with you.
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